A few weeks ago I came off of the treadmill (like I usually do), laid down on my yoga mat (like I usually do), closed my eyes (like I usually do) and reflected on the words of the worship song playing on my Ipod (like I usually do).
“You reached out in love to show me life. Lifted from darkness into life. And I, find myself here on my knees again. Caught up in grace like an avalanche. Nothing compares to this love love love burning in my heart.”
It was in that moment that I realized the simplicity and the power of that room that I was lying in. I looked around at the space and it hit me, this room over the past 6 months had become my prayer room. More than any other place that I had been. It was in this room that I consistently found myself on my knees before the Lord in prayer. In prayer over my own heart, prayer over our future family, prayer over my husband and prayer over the people around me. It’s been in that room that I’ve independently and secretly cried the most tears and it’s been in that room that I’ve surrendered my heart and the most raw and honest version of myself. It’s a simple room. There’s a treadmill with some weights. It’s not set up to be anything special or fancy but its where I’ve found myself entering into the most battle during this season of life. It’s where I’ve found myself more than ever seeking the face of Jesus.
My favorite part of this room is this baby blanket hanging on our wall in front of the treadmill. It’s a perfect reminder for both Jimmy and myself. “He has made everything beautiful in HIS timing” Ecc. 3:11 Whether I’m lying on the floor or running on the treadmill, those words and that truth I read and speak over my heart over and over and over again. God’s timing is not our own. It’s better and its more beautiful then we could have ever imagined for ourself. It comes with relinquishing control and surrendering our hopes and plans for our future for His. It comes with frustrations and tears knowing that His grace is sufficient and his patience for us in our seasons of hardship and goodness is unending.
It has been in this room that I found a God who loves me for me regardless of my circumstances, my doubts or my fears. In this room I have found that although I may change like shifting shadows, He does not and He never will. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.
So friends, my question to you today is have you found a room? A space? A place that’s personal to you where you meet with Jesus and where you can find rest?
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28